by Katie-Alan Calhoun, September 2015 200 Hour Bali yoga teacher training graduate
Abhinivesa, the fourth and final limb of Avidya (ignorance), stands for fear. This particular fear is the fear of the unknown or the fear of what has not yet happened. Everyone at some point in their life has dealt with the crippling effects of fear in some way, shape, or form. It blossoms deep down inside us when we lack certainty in ourselves or our surroundings.
I found the Zuna Yoga teacher training program at a very critical point in my life - my "quarter-life crisis". Unlike the mid-life crisis, where you are coming to terms with the decisions you have made, the quarter-life crisis is the point in which you attempt to make the conscious decisions that will last. As in, what do I want to do? What is my life's purpose? Where do I want to be? Who do I want to be with? Yoga has taught me maybe the most valuable lesson to help with this crossroad, and that is to move with the ebb and flow of life. When we practice yoga, we're striving for physical flexibility - but it's equally if not more important to be mentally flexible. Always remember to move with the twists turns of life, and breathe.
Not knowing what lies ahead can be daunting, but it is also a beautiful gift. By being open minded and making decisions based on love instead of fear, life's wonderful possibilities are presented to you in abundance.
When considering the idea of teaching yoga, I initially had my doubts. It took me about two years to get past the "I don't know enough to share with my students what they need" or "What if I'm not good enough?"
By finally deciding to choose love over fear, I applied to Zuna Yoga and booked a flight to Bali. I will be training in their 200 hour program for three weeks in Ubud and am certain it will be filled with exactly that: love. Traveling to a different country alone is scary. Taking a leap into a new chapter of my life is frightening. But not taking an opportunity to reaching my full potential because of fear is downright terrifying.
If there are three things that have helped me overcome fear, these are it:
1. Have a strong connection with your inner child or adolescence. This is your state of relentless joy and sense of adventure. Do what brings you true happiness.
2. Swim with the current and not against it. When you resist change or refuse to go with the flow, you are depleting a powerful source of energy. We're talking potential illness and disease here people. Just remember: relax. Every little thing is gonna be alright.
3. Leap! Do what scares you the most. Those particular things end up being my favorite, and they may be yours as well. To think I would have never discovered those parts of myself because of fear is heartbreaking.
You are always changing, you are always learning. Don't let the fear of the unknown dictate your destiny.