|Lauren gathers her reading material for the Cambodia 200YTT|
This past May, I devoted some time creating my one year, five year and ten year goals. I did some goal coaching with a coworker at lululemon who told me: ‘If your dreams don’t scare you, they’re not big enough.’
My one year goals proved to be the most confronting, as I was now accountable to all the things I wanted to accomplish in the next year. One of them was to travel home to Canada to visit my family, and one of them was to complete a 200 hour yoga teacher training. At the beginning of June I was eager to start making my goals happen. I planned a trip home, and travelled to Canada in August to visit my family after two years of being away from home. I also started researching 200 hour yoga teacher trainings. I knew I wanted to travel somewhere new to complete the training and find a training that excited and inspired me.
After lots of Google searching for 200 hour yoga teacher trainings, I came across Zuna Yoga and their scholarship program. I had only one week to apply before the application was due, and so I quickly reached out for references and sent through the application.
I eagerly awaited the outcome of my scholarship application and was so excited, nervous, and speechless when I found out I had won! I remember thinking how amazing it felt to be manifesting my goals into reality. As soon as I wrote my goals on paper, I felt accountable to them, inspired by them and motivated to make things happen.
June seemed like a long time away from December when the yoga teacher training with Zuna Yoga in Cambodia was to start. I had months to read, prepare and just wrap my head around the fact that I was embarking on this next adventure. Well, as we all know: time flies. The beginning of this teacher training has rolled around so quickly and is only days away now. Katherine (one of the lead instructors at Zuna Yoga) asked me yesterday if I feel like I'm on an emotional roller coaster, and that sums it up perfectly. I feel excited and nervous and slightly unsure about all the learning, challenge, growth, and new opportunities this yoga teacher training will bring.
Over the last month, there has been a lot to let go of. I have left a job I love for this teacher training opportunity. What comes with that is saying goodbye to people I love and a place that has inspired me, allowed me to grow and supported me in so many ways. I have been constantly learning to become more open, and to be okay with vulnerability and taking chances. I've come to realize that when we are open to trust, change, faith, growth, and new experiences - things work out just the way they are meant to. I know this training has come at a perfectly imperfect time in my life and there is lots for me to learn. I couldn’t have asked for a better opportunity to come my way and this goal has been one of the most meaningful ones for me.
I anticipate this training will teach me not only how to be more influential yoga teacher, but how to be a more inspired friend, colleague and individual in this world. I have been asking myself: am I ready for this? I’ve come to realize that maybe I may never feel ‘ready’, but I’m as ready as I’ll ever be and I can’t wait to see what this next adventure brings!